Sadly cancer blog continues

So my little puddings. I know no-one is reading this any more - although maybe they will again now for a while - but it helps me to vent.

I failed notably to note it here, particularly, but yes, I had lung surgery last year to remove a small area that contained some metastases. Yes, they did cancel it because of a cold first off. Yes, it hurt. No, it wasn't appalling pain, I only cried once when I was trying on a new bra after about 2 months without wearing any. Yes it went on for a long time. Yes I worked bloody hard to get my health levels back. Yes I did get them back (although, I have never got back my full stamina and energy levels since my first illness; I think; but that is partly emotional/mental).

And, yes, I have got another round of metastasis. This time it is in lymph glands in the drainage area below the bit they cut out last time. And today I have been told that they intend to remove my whole right lung on the 7th March.

I am really devastated. I no longer believe I will be cured, i.e. cancer will be removed. I believe the little bugger is in there, it's gone walkabout and it Will Be Back. At which point, the only option (assuming it comes back in the remaining lung) will be chemo and basically life prolongation; but not cure.

I am pissed off.

I am suicidal by moment.

I don't see the point. Most of the time.

I havn't told my mum. Don't any of you dare do so either. She knows I'm going in for surgery, let that suffice.

Blogging (but the other one)

In case you link to this one and not my translation one, since I am now mentally and emotionally involved in the translation side, and will become more so from start October when I start the online MA in Translation with Bristol Uni., and since summer is now over, my blogging has recommenced, but on the translation one. I might put the occasional WHINGE on here, but most of the worth-reading stuff, be it minor comical interludes or actual thoughtful stuff, will go on on the other one.

Gosh. That was a long sentence, eh? Oh - no - it was two sentences. That's alright, then!

Detached from this histoire

Yes - I must be better! I have not only stopped blogging here, but I have started a new blog, relating to my new venture - translation services.


Any one need something translating, I'm quite possibly your woman. I do charge, mind!


Have a look at my new blog, http://clearsteptranslation.blogspot.fr/, and admire my new website, http://www.clearsteptranslations.com/. In fact, admire it frequently and often via Google searches; add FB likes and Tweet about it. Help me build! Thank you!


(Actually as I type I think it is still in 'being registered' state - but it will be published soon. Try it and see).


OK - I don't know why my background has gone all strange, but tough.